yelling out !!

october - i have been facing a lot of bad things in this month which made me dissapointed , sad and fear and angry ..
what really put me down is my final exam result ..damm .. the result was so poor that i had never ever get since in my 17 years of studies .Hits the lowest record since i was in kindergarden .not happy not happy not happy and also hate myself as why am i so stupid ...but wat can i do ?? ???????/??/just try to put more effort in this semester .

After coming bck from holidays , notice that almost everyone is quite far from me already .Last time situation is no longer exsit ..just feel like everyone attitude has been changed ...Haiz ,could somebody tell me what is happening now ??????

~SuSu ~

shopping queen ,design expert , happy girl ,talkative and friendly - she is my friend Susu ..She is the friend that im so admire ...Politeness and friendly -always smiling ,gretting and say '' hai ''to everyone even the people she doesnot know . Besides, she is also a shopping Queen , called her shopping queen coz she is so interesting to go for shopping same with me ,like to buy sumting fashion ,wear pretty , neatly before go to skul . Like to go shopping everywhere-When we were studied at the college , we always went for shopping while also went to starbucks at Timesquare to enjoy our coffee after shopping .Shopping and shopping at sungai wang , timesquare ,KLCC, Pavilion and etc...When got break time in the class , v even also go to Watson downstairs the college to search for her cosmetic
She is the second pple that always went for shopping besides with
my coursin lee shan . Same with me , we also interesting to ''kepo, kepo'' sumting about pple ,talking fun and always go to her favourite restaurant -Oldtown Central Market to have lunch ....
This is about her -my friend Susu who is planning to go for Singapore to continue her degree .

My best coursin

I would like also to thank to her for her care to me for the past two and half years when i was in KL .Since she is my best coursin coursin that i ever meet before .Kindess ,generous as always spend for me , caring but a little naughty who is never say no to me when I asked for her help .Took me went around the placeses, shopping ,enjoying ,eating(especially the expensive restaurent ),exploring new thinngs and even also never say tired to fetch me to her house almost every weekend .Haha ,,like to follow her go everywhere ...Sometime feel very touch that she help me a .A bit miss her when i leave KL .Since I know that I wouldnot have a chance to stay with her anymore ..the felling become more sad especially when i leave KL ...haiz ... why did I withdraw from the metropolitan college and come to kampar to study ?
Must remember her forever as she is the best coursin .. Hope u take care urself and wish u all the best ..

我-

一个没有将来，一个对未来感到迷慌，一对为来没抱任何西望的人，不赶想未来我要怎么办，不感猜测，因为我不懂，也不想。。。。只想这背子好好过下去。。。不懂得表答，不会橙清，外冷内热，兼处事不圆猾－这就是我。。。。不会表答，不是我不想讲出，而是不懂要怎么开口，帮过我的人-我真的很感谢你门，其试，我真的很想向你们说声谢谢，告诉你们我很感急，好珍吸。。但往往就是开不了口，，处事不圆猾，往往都是我人生的败笔。。曾经，我想撤撤底底的改过我自几，但到最后，我还是选择了愿本的我。。因为我就是我改变不到...